With starting fresh with my new blog, I wanted to start talking more about real life topics that we can all relate to. I talk about health and beauty all the time, and I think one of the biggest keys to both of those is mental health and self love.
Like many girls, I have struggled with body image and self image in the past, and it led to years of disorder eating and unhealthy habits. I was never satisfied with what I saw in the mirror whether I thought I looked to fat or too skinny. I searched and searched for the “perfect” diet. I became obsessed with trying to be as healthy as possible and strived for a “model body.”
I thought that being thinner would make me happy, but even at my lowest weight (a mere 90 pounds) I was not all happy. Everyday was a battle against food and against my own mind. I didn’t see the skeleton everyone else saw. I was just caught up in calories and numbers. I was always comparing everything I did or ate to all the people I followed on social media. It was exhausting.
I didn’t understand why my relationships with people in my life were suffering, why my golf game was getting worse, or why I always in a bad mood. I was so blinded by the disordered thoughts that I couldn’t see I had a problem.
As time went on, I realized I needed to change. I began educating myself on health, and started getting into weight lifting. I switched my workout mentality from “burning calories” to “getting stronger”. I began to see food as fuel and not something to be feared. I began to use fitness to enhance my life, not make my life revolve around fitness. I gained back excitement for the things I’m passionate about and a new passion for true health.
I began to focus on what made me happy. I began to focus on what made me feel healthy and not just copy what I saw some fitness girl on Instagram post. I stopped trying to be perfect and started to just be me again. I started eating to fuel my body, and slowly over coming foods that “scared” me. I not only gained pounds, but I gained smiles, laughs, and peace.
Mental health is just as important as physical health. Healthy is taking care of yourself mind, body, and soul. If being healthy is stressing you out, you’re doing it wrong. Focus on your happiness first, and the rest will begin to fall into place.
Stay happy & healthy.